Wednesday, March 14, 2007

pondering

So.

Spring has sprung and it's not much of a stretch to imagine the green creeping out over everything, the ground drying up and the smell of ice gone.

And I'm seized with both the thought of spring cleaning renovating at least painting

and of finding a new career. Or a job that I love and will get paid to do.
I find myself at loose ends - wanting more than I have, sure that anything I want to do will require more schooling, and paralyzed at the thought of
a) going back (ack!) to school
and
b) making final choices that will set me on that goal.

I've never been good at picking a career. It wasn't that I didn't want to do anything, it was that I wanted to do (and be!) everything. Now that I've narrowed it down a bit (I realize now that marine biologist/president/chef isn't really a viable option) I find myself on the edge of reaching out and taking the steps needed - and still held back by the thought that this will change most aspects of my life.

I think I need the Spring to bring me a little bravery.

8 comments:

Heather said...

I'm currently covered in paint and writing to say no, you definitely don't want to paint. I too think I need a career change, but having just acquired a bigger mortgage and having a house to sell before that can go through I'm sitting in neutral for a while.

Lone Grey Squirrel said...

When I was young(er), I was inspired by the wisdom of Linus van Pelt from the comic strip Peanuts to be "a rich, world famous but humble country doctor." Haha. Everything, I wanted it all too. And why not? Would it spoil some vast eternal plan? (ripped off from Fiddler on the Roof).

How can we help you? Roll the dice. Vote for occupations? Hmmmm? Curious squirrels want to be helpful.

Molly said...

I'm glad to hear it's not just ny children who wrestle with this dilemma....

velcro said...

I'm doing a home life coaching course at present to figure out exactly what I want to do with my life. I mean apart from sitting on the coach eating chocolate and drinking diet coke. There must be more to life than that!

Sarah Louise said...

Well, there's always library school. Then you can be interested in everything!!

I'd say painting is not on my agenda--too many things to trip over here in ze garret of SL.

My agenda: get over this stupid sinus infection.

My float said...

Go Spring! I've just made a bit of a career change too, and even though it's really challenging, it's also exciting. I'm wishing you all the very best.

charley jo said...

Oh, it is wonderful to hear someone express the same feelings about careers. I begin photography school in Sept. (3000 miles away from my boys and spouse) and am scared witless. There is something about "having to put up or shut up"...

Jeanne said...

Yeah, I was interested in a lot of diverse things too.