a saga in three costumes

Waaay back in the early days of this month, Cass had put in his order for his Halloween costume.

And I wept and gnashed my teeth and shook my fists at an unsympathetic sky and actually made blueprints and then figured out not only would the damned costume weigh sixty pounds, he would be unable to see very well and couldn't sit in the car to boot.

So I sniveled (on the internet! For shame!) and then, while I was sobbing face-down over the remnants of ripped boxes and tangled string, poster paint spotting the floor, my clothes, my hair... there was a gentle tap on my shoulder (angels sang) and my sister-in-law said
"Hey, Jess? I found one on the internet."

And lo! The earth did smile again. (Or at least the mom.)

So C was thrilled by his costume. So thrilled, actually, that he was afraid to wear it to his big Hallow'een party. What if my mask breaks? What if I spill something on it? How can I play games with a full-face mask on??

Enter costume number 2. The Werewolf. This was a huge hit and was born of desperation and a lucky glance into a supermarket bin.
(Not sure what he was doing there - dancing? - but probably the best shot I got of the great slashing holes and jagged tears we tore in his clothes.)

Then today he had his Halloween party at school and went as a pirate. (Costume number 3.) His school has a no-costumes-on-holidays policy, and so one thing is picked each year and all the students wear funny socks, or hats, or this year? Pirates. While they couldn't wear swords or be too elaborate, they all wore pirate headgear. I didn't get a picture of Cass in his gear, so you'll just have to imagine...tall, skinny kid, giant black hat, skull-and-crossbones neckerchief.

Then...tonight. Tonight was THE night. Tonight was Transformers night.

TA-DA!!!

He made a good car-turned-to-a-robot.

And we went trick-or-treating and they* got bags and bags of swag and were feted up and down and ran their asses off, running from door to door and house to house while their father and I tried vainly to keep up.

And now they've passed out.

Happy Hallow'een to all.


*Yes, for the purpose of this post I HAVE forgotten that I have TWO kids. See, she only had ONE costume, a fact that someday when the teen years hit I'm sure I'll pay for.....

But see how cute!

...and you're to blame....

It was Flu Shot day today.

Remembering last time we did this, this time....I took Bear.

We also didn't tell the kids what we were going to do until they were strapped in their seats and we were driving towards the highway.

(And that part of it? Troubled me. It felt sneaky.)

As soon as we told him, Cass got upset. Fiercely upset. We took his mind of it by letting him pick the order of who went first, second, etc (we were all getting poked - family togetherness! Whee!) and then deciding what we were doing afterwards (eat supper, or go see Papa?) and that seemed to work.

He was calm and a little apprehensive until we walked into the doctor's office, and then, he.....

...crawled under a chair in the waiting room.

The crowded waiting room.

(Meanwhile, Rosey is looking for a book to read and saying hi to another woman waiting. Supremely unconcerned.)


Then we were in an exam room, Bear sitting C up with him, soothing and talking to him, Rosey ogling the lollipop jar.

When the doctor came in, Cass jerked away when the needle hit him and had to be re-pricked (the trauma! THE TRAUMA!!!) and so I took him and put him in my lap afterwards (and when did my boy get so long??) and R had her turn.

While he sobbed, she stuck out her arm, winced, and asked for a band-aid.

(Why yes, they are completely opposite in temperment, why??)

His tears dried, he decided on a green lolly and we were off to see Papa.

Last year, I thought I was going to have to sit on him to make him stay still.

This year, he didn't run away.

But I still felt horrid.

we are all different colours

It's been two days of wet, windy, grey weather.

When I peeped outside this morning and saw the sun (the sun!) shining down through the remaining leaves and skipping across the surface of the river, it was all I could do not to run outside and shout.

Hello! Where have you been??

Today we'll go out in the wind and the sun and play in all that flash and arresting autumn-tide until the kids smell like toasty crunchy leaves themselves, and then we'll sneak back in for warm milk

and maybe a cooky.

Days like this are so alive.

playdate tuesday

YUM-my!

Rosey and I made cookies today. Sugar cookies. Painted cookies.

Go here and I'll tell you all about it.

whistle while she works

My youngest has gotten a cleaning bug from somewhere, and oh, yeah, I'm fighting this.

Snort.

R whips her broom and dustpan around like she's going for the Silver Shoes competition (Junior Division) trophy. If she had pet mice they'd no doubt be singing a happy tune with her.

We tell her she's a good girl, that doesn't she want to play? but no. This is playing, she says, and swirls her mop with more joy than I've ever had wielding it.

'Y'know, honey,' I say, 'You could let me do that.' (I'm also covertly eyeing the puddles of water and the glued-on dog hair scattered behind.)

'Mama! NO. I am going to clean this, then I'll sit down and Cass and I can watch cartoons.' she said, zooming through the rooms with abandonment.

She's even got her brother thinking this is fun.

*shock*

I tried again. 'Rosey, I'll finish this.'

Rosey tipped the mop bucket into the sink. 'All done, Mama.'

'I can do this stuff b'cause I'm a gen-us. You have to be to take care of a fam'bly.'



Y'know, who am I to argue with this next generation?

desperados

I worked today. B took the kids to a costume party.

Now, besides the little voice in my head squeaking 'this is so unfair!' and 'I wanted to do that!' I was a little afraid that Bear would forget part of Rosey's costume. Or he'd freeze up when it came time to do their makeup.

Last night B and I sat down and did a dry run. Well, sorta. In the midst of me explaining the mixing and how to create the look of fake hair, B decided there was no time like the present and began to paint me.

And since C was a werewolf and R a purple kitty? I looked a bit...um...demented.

His make-up skills, though? Awesome.

So, if you're driving the back roads today and you happen to pass a hideous monster and a purring (although unusually colored) cat?

Be not afraid. They like people.....



.....but only for lunch.

tyger tyger

almost like dexter

Last year our pumpkins looked like Rorschach blots.

Actually, I wish. Symmetrical? Not so much. And I know pumpkins are supposed to be a fun thing, not art work (not when they're seven and four) but when they look like three/four-eyed wild Picasso prints as interpreted by a Morse Code enthusiast, it's hard to praise the kids and play guess the expression at the same time.

But there's something about transferring a thought in your head to the curved, unforgiving blank face of the pumpkin that....doesn't translate well.

This year, I was prepared. Armed with one big and two smaller 'pumpkin knives', I cut the tops off while the kids decided what face they wanted on their jack o' lanterns. The air was thick with 'And his eye should be pointy!' 'I want a BIG smile on mine!' and finally I went and got a Sharpie and some blank paper, drawing one rounded silhouette, and one squared. The kids got busy with crayons while I gooshed the guts out, and then....then....

then we carved then up. And there were shrieks and groans (although not from the pumpkins) and the rich smell o'guts and seeds and delighted squealing.

Tomorrow we'll light them up and I'll show you the carnage we have wrought.

wile e coyote, first grader

We were driving home when Cass piped up.

"Dad, Dad! I want to decorate for Halloween!"

Bear nodded. "I think your Mom has some stuff she wants to do...."

"No! I want to take a jack-o-lantern? And put ketchup in it? And then we can run a rope up by the door, so when trick-or-treaters come by, when we open the door...."

"Cass! That's horrible! How'd you like to get all wet when you went trick-or-treating?" I made horrified mother noises and peered in the back, where the fruit of my loins was rolling his eyes at me.

He gave me the duh! look. "I know that. No, we could put a rope up on the roof - we'd put a pulley up there, (and here's where I went into a sort of fugue, thinking 'My baby! Where has mah baybee gone?? He used to be so sweet!).......and then when we pulled it, the water would spill into the pumpkin...and it would look like blood was coming out of it!"

B looked at me. "Where does he get this stuff?"

I fretted. "I don't know! Do you think it's that boy X in his class? I mean, I know he's rough, but Cass seems to like him, and they had a good time this summer on the..."

Bear was shaking his head. "No, Jess. Not that. This pulley idea he's talking about? The way he's described it, it would.......work."

the stove stays

I love my stove. LOVE LOVE LOVE it. It's a Findlay stove from the 1950's, converted at some point from wood (and coal, we think) to propane, and a graceful and beautiful thing to see each morning. It was the first thing I liked about this house, and it's remained my favorite.

Unfortunately, it's at least fifty years old now, and the last time we had it fixed, the technician shook his head and said something about borrowed time. He has no idea where to find parts for it anymore.

Last night the oven wouldn't light. B fussed with it for awhile and then came out to the living room, frowning.

'It won't work, Jess. I think we're going to have to think about a new stove soon.'

I shot him a pleading look and he shrugged. 'I'll go try to fix it, but....'

Crashing and swearing soon were heard from the kitchen, along with a (loudly) muttered 'If you didn't love this thing so much, I'd...'

'You'd what??'

'Nothing, dear. You realize the only reason this is still here is because you love it, right?'

B appeared in the doorway to emphasize his point, wiping his hands. 'It's working. For now.'

I was appreciative, I was, and I smiled sweetly and thanked him, adding:

'You realize that you're still here because I love you, right?'

(He shakes his head at me a lot. Wonder why??)


Today he started looking on the internet to try and find out if he can gut the interior and replace everything.

Because he's sweet like that. And like my husband, the stove stays.

pieces of me

Tonight has been a remembering night - caused by what, I'm not sure. The turning of the seasons?

But I've been thinking, and remembering, and wondering where all my old friends have gone, and what they're doing.
People I never thought I'd think twice about after leaving high school float lazily through my mind, their faces unlined, their grins the same. Remembering their laughter.

Some days I wish I'd seen how all their lives played out. Facebook is a good thing, but hardly a substitute to kitchen-table talk and late-night laughing with friends.

I don't regret moving here, raising a family here or being here at all - I just wish I'd held the strings tighter to the ones at home.

I think it's time for a trip back - see a few girlfriends, laugh about our lives and re-connect.

Maybe at Christmas.

Hmm. More probably next year.

But it will be soon! I have things I want to show my children while they're still young.

In the meantime, I'll enjoy the autumn....


dig out the sweaters, and enjoy the scent of woodsmoke and crisped leaves that drifts near with each lungful of bracingly clean, cold air.